My heart is bursting!

I just had a Please Lord let this moment be forever etched in my heart and mind.  My child came to hang out with me (after his brothers were all tucked in for the night) and told me that he liked a girl at school and could he ask her out on a date.  He told me they had gone to elementary school together and that they had several classes together this year and sometimes eat lunch and hang out together.  I quickly sent up a prayer asking God for guidance in what to say and asked him what he thought a date was.  He said he wasn't sure, but he knew he liked her and wanted to go out.  I told him that I thought that talking on the phone would be okay, inviting her to church would be okay.  He told me she already goes to church and where she went.  We talked about that even if she went somewhere else he could invite her to a special event.  He seemed pleased with this, thank you Lord!  I than got to tell him how much I love him and that I LOVED how he could trust me with his heart this way. I love him so much, my heart feels like it is going to burst.  I can't stop the smile that is on my face but also feel like I am going to cry because my little boy is turning into a young man.  Oh, how this momma's heart is praying for God's guidance in raising a Godly man. A man who has God's heart.  This is a moment I will store up and treasure in my heart.

Grief

Grief.....  Grief is something that grips your heart, clenches your soul and makes it hard to catch your breath.  Your stomach drops every single time you allow your mind to think, to dwell.  You get a tickle in your throat and your eyes burn before they fill with tears that stream almost unnoticed down your face.  Your head and heart ache.  Ache.  Confusion. Questions. Why?  Grief freezes time.  It hits everyone.

Today, I found out one that I love dearly has Cystic Fibrosis.  My heart aches.  Tears flow freely.  Questions come abundantly.   Grief. 

Today,  I found out that I do not have breast cancer-right now.  I will play the wait game and come back in the summer to have the lumps re-evaluated.  Many tests will need to be re-done and assessed.  Yet still I have  Joy supressed.  Rejoicing in spirit, my heart is full.

Thank you Father that during trials and tribulations, during turmoil, heartache and despair, YOU are there.  Let Your Mighty Name be on my heart, mind and lips.  Direct my path. 

Romans 5:13
"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

Psalm 143:8
"Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.  Show me the way I should go, for to You I lift my soul."

Romans 12:12
"Rejoice in Hope.  Be patient in tribulation.  Be constant in prayer."